My short hiatus from blogging is over. As mentioned in the last post, I was thinking of shutting down this blog. I’ve changed my mind.
A couple of days ago I received an anonymous letter from someone I had probably only met once back in Wichita, Kansas. He had heard through a friend of a friend of a friend (or something like that) that I had become an atheist. This fellow himself had been struggling with questions about faith and now considers himself an agnostic. He spent some time reading my writings and then wrote me. It made my day.
His reasoning for not being public about his change in views is
“Unfortunately, I have good reasons to continue the lie I live, and not the least of them being the torment and scorn that await me should my immediate community of friends and family find me out.”
At that moment I realized that as much as I wish this portion of my life as represented in these writings did not exist – I am still not alone. And there are probably plenty of people who will be – or have been – going through the same things. More so, they may be from the same area of the country I was in – and from the same circle of friends potentially.
Not to mention as much as I tried to tell myself I had “recovered”, I still have a lot to work through.
- Josh
